Coping

It's all I can think about
when things don't go right
i've been through enough
to make my skin tough
it's not the streets
it's not the hood
it's not the ghetto
I'm so misunderstood
it's my upbringing
the people in my life
I'm tired
of having to go through strife
of having to explain to you
if you don't get it
go on with that attitude
i'm not in debt to you
don't owe you anything
It's just me, myself and I
till the end of time.

Trust

You're looking at me
I'm looking at you
with that sparkle in your eye
I can't deny
put my feelings aside
this love affair
has me flying sky high
my feelings asoar
what's wrong
feels so right
I don't want to take on this plight
the guilt
the sparkle will soon dwindle
the flame will stop burning
and this seemingly valent attempt at love
will leave soon an empty void to fill
once again searching
once again looking
trying to find
and never coming to an end
I don't want to be with you at this cost
you're not the boss
of me
I will find someone to love me
I will find the God in me to play
one day and you'll find your self astray
wondering and wishing things didn't end too soon
never gave yourself a chance
now you end up in an undesireable circumstance
I won't listen to the lies
It should take you as no surprise
that I have my own mind
this love affair
didn't end too soon
it ended right on time
with you on my mind
I can never make the same mistake twice.

A Good Man

A good man doesn't lie and cheat
A good man doesn't take you for granted
A good man doesn't touch you only under the sheets
A good man is hard to find
A good man is out there and he's waiting for me
to get it together
it's all a part of God's plan
I'm ready and willing to recieve
I'm hoping and wishing
that good man will find me.

Meatless

In my body I can't consume
The taste is just too much
It makes me go to the bathroom
and heave dry heave
everything toxic
everything I can't bring up
I don't want this in my body anymore
I can't live
I can't absorb
the life that once lived
dead and inside of me
so toxic so unclean
please
get it from inside of me.

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is for you
we want God to forgive us
the one unforgivable sin
blasphemy of the holy spirit
it's done
it's deep, it's within
my soul
I'm led by the holy spirit
guided by a higher power
blasphemy of him
the ultimate sin
the unforgivable
the most detestable
the unjustifiable
I'm moving
I'm shaking
I'm going on
unforgivable
I can't even begin...

Revenge

Looking back behind me
like I'm scared of the dark that lies in front of me
moving forward in an abyss
a world of unknown
I accept the tragic truth
I take it as a spoof
a fool
a joke
a poke at life
cause it's so funny to me
I can't take it seriously
It's so beneath my character
wondering why I even give it the time
of day
comic relief
making fun of the fun in me
it's not that serious
life
it's beneath me to think
that you're telling me the truth
when all you do is spoof
and spit lies
when the proof
is in the pudding you eat
didn't think I would find it
you sleep
I creep
get back
it's mine to keep.

Inhaling and Exhaling

Never felt so good
to be at peace this way
I'm getting out the way
making room for my destiny
moving all of my dreams to fruition
keeping my sanity in tact
a good night's sleep
a smile on my face
totally entranced in a vibe
taking it one step at a time
got my money on my mind
all I can think about is doing this thing right
no more room for distractions
just a simple laugh
I'm moving on anyway
nothing can hold me down
I'm too bold
I'm too strong
stop
you're wasting your time
I can rhyme all day long
breaking out in rhythms
syncopated psychoisms
breaking it down in simple terms
so that you understand
I'm like a fern blossoming and blooming
so right
I feel so tight
gotta get this body right
my temple
where my spirit dwells
moving in and out of this zone
trying to keep warm
afraid of the cold
creeping in and out
trying to avoid a snow storm
from pouring down icy rain on my heart
I knew this from the start
God had it confirmed
he's so good
so real
so manifested in my life
I'm through going through strife.

Another Day, Another Dollar

Another Day
Another Dollar
one more way to may you holler
in and out
turning all about
a senseless maze of unfulfillment
working like a robot
making movements to get it out
spit spit spit
work work work
another day, another dollar
one more thing to make you holler
what happened to the dreams?
what happened to the eyes so bright?
tainted by reality
slapped in the face by a painful truth
another day, another dollar
one more way to make you holler.

Cruelty

If I've been evil
I'm sorry
If I haven't been so nice
I'm sorry
If I don't pay attention to you
I'm sorry
and if I've made you mad
I'm sorry
Life is hard enough without us bashing each other
love, peace and harmony
is what I strive to be
anger mixed with pain mixed with lies and deceit
I'm sorry if you've been placed on my receipt
I apologize for all of my wrong doing
for everything I've excused as justifiable
I'm sorry if I haven't been pliable
Time will only tell
Only a witch can break this spell
all wrapped up in rapture
mesmerized by your smell
captured by your smile
I'd walk a mile over and over
to have another chance
if only for a little while...