Minding My Own Business

Minding my own business and it feels so good
never staying stuck
never hood
I'm minding my own business
to you I just don't care
never getting involved in someone else's affairs
never appreciated
never wanted
I keep my good advice all bottled up
resevered and used for myself
I'm minding my own business and it feels so good
never staying stuck
never hood
I'm minding my own business and it feels so good
I used to brood
I used to get upset
wanting better for someone else when they've got to want good for them self
I'm minding my own business
Forever and ever taking care of myself.

My Hair

My Hair is nappy at the root
It grows wild
crazy as a fool
my hair is not considered pretty
nor is it beautiful
chemical processes make it straight for a while
then it grows
crazy as a fool
chemical processes all over again
tame the wild
jungle girl
they cry
go back to Africa
Brought here in chains
whipped
not equipped
my ancestors paid the price
now I'm treated not so nice
in a place where I must assimilate
or feel the ice
from cold stares
the mean glare
not pretty not long
nappy root
if you're not like me you're ugly
who set the standard
for such decrepit candor
so rude
so mean
so unclean
nappy hair
it's totally me
underneath the perm
the braids the twists
at the root
coarse and so wild
so free
so easy
black is beautiful
believe me.

Drama

I can do without it
It makes me drowsy
and sleepy
somewhat gives me a creepy
feeling
I don't want any part of it
minimal contact
for me
easy and carefree
a life drama free
I can do without it
for me
my best interests at heart
knowing what's good from the start
I can do it on my own
I can do it myself
one foot in front of the other
baby steps
one at a time
flowing like a rhyme
one two three
step
then step again
drama and me
we don't agree.

Being at Peace

I'm at peace with me
no longer forced to pretend
he's not my real daddy
all the hurt, all the pain
all the evil and dirty looks
it all makes sense to me now
you're not my real daddy
I can be real with me
I don't have to pretend
I don't have to fake like this works for me
I don't have to go around playing like
you're one to me
a daddy
you're not
my daddy wouldn't treat me so cruel
my daddy wouldn't make me feel like a fool
my daddy wouldn't look at me the way you do
make me feel unimportant
that's totally uncool
my daddy is a mystical creature to me
somewhere in heaven looking down from above the clouds
watching and protecting me
keeping me safe and warm
away from harm
my daddy is not you
my daddy is not cruel.

Hate

Permeating through your soul
like a vile needle
stuck with a sticky substance
into your skin
piercing the flesh
the flow
moving slow
through the blood
mixing in its' essence
making you high
on a drug
addicting
making you want to scream
making you want to go out
of this seemingly endless world
of pain
of disdain
of all things
raining down big droplets of blood
the ultimate price for sin
I want to go within and never come out
I want to go within and shut the world out
within is where I find it
peace
everlasting
never ending
peace is where I find it
at the end of the rainbow
covenant promise
this life this world
I'm not of it
just a spirit being
here for a while
won't waste my time with hate
pulling out the vile
God's only child.

I got it

No need for idle stares
I got it
No need to talk about me behind my back
I got it
No need for you to suck your teeth
I got it
No need for you to look over at me
I got it
Now let me give you something
I don't care
This life is too short
It's too much
It's too wonderful
It's too great
Turn your hate into love
Stop trying to perpetrate
I got it
Do you?

Focus

Pinpoint and get it in
stayin' on the grind
making this thing
called life happen
in the blink of eye
I could die
be gone for life
never remembered for anything
except having gone through strife
striving and never getting
getting and never satisfied
where's the point?
pin point
focus
get it right.

Wondering Why

I'm wondering why I'm here wrapped up in this mess
I'm wondering why I keep finding myself in distress
despite the many wondrous things God has done for my life
I keep having to go through strife.
I'm wondering why it doesn't feel so nice
and in my mind I want to be cold as ice
I can't close my heart
I can't be hard
I want to be mean
but I can't
just need to let off some steam
I'm wondering why you keep looking at me with the cocked eye
like I did something to you in a past life
I'm wondering why you keep spitting fire
when I'm sitting here minding my business trying not to perspire
I have tough skin so I'll stay and take the heat
I was born in the kitchen, u trying me...lol
straight heading for defeat.

The Lord

The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want
Ye though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death
I will not fear.
I will not let a punk ass bitch
get in my face and tell me what to do
Lord as you can see
I need you
Lord you are my light
my life
Lord
Lord
Lord
What would I do without you
Lord.

My Buttons

Pushing on my buttons
I can't lie
something just doesn't feel right
You're pushing on my buttons
And I'm getting tight.
You better back up
unless you want to fight
all riled up
in a b-boy stance
ready to get it on
and prove myself
if given the chance
but for what I ask myself
I know
I know and that's all that matters
If you've got to figure it out
Go to God
He heals all wounds
He will set free
He will deliver
stop looking at me
I'm not him
I just know where to find him;
In the secret place of my mind
it took time
now I'm here
and it feels so good
just wish the whole world understood
his mercy and his grace
so wonderful
so free
so beautiful to be me.

Meditation

Meditation on my mind
moving into this state
like a gate
it's in front of me
protecting me
blocking you
from my territory
keeping it to myself
picking and choosing those who I let come in
into the inner chambers of my mind
the place where I dwell
me and the God in me
moving and shaking
making this thing happen
nothing in this world
is too big
nothing in this world is too much
I can't touch.

Moving On

Thought I had it all figured out
Thought I knew what life was all about
then it hit me
like a new moon.
it came too soon
now I'm here
just singing the blues
and no one wants to hear it
but you
thoughtless complaints
moans and groans
it means nothing
and it's giving me a headache
when no one cares
and you're unwanted
just singing a song that falls on deaf ears
and wanting to be what you want me to be
but I can't, you see
I can only be me
molded and shaped
by the God in me
molded and shaped by my destiny
moving on
I can only be me.

Not Worried

I'm not worried
Why should I be?
In a world undone
we're all going to die one day
skip hop and dip into heaven
like it was made for me
a place so soft and sweet
my destiny
I'm not worried
why should I be?

I Am Woman

Hear me roar
Hear me cry out in a jungle voice
of a love unheard
of feelings hurt
and not cared about
no cares
no one understands
my pain
I bottle it and keep it inside
scared the scars might be salted
by the mean and uncaring
I'm moving
moving on to bigger and better
to a world all my own
in the secret place of my mind
a place unknown
a place of peace and harmony
destined for me and only me
taking it one step at a time
caring and careful
wondering and wonderful
wanting and unwanted
a place for me
me and only me.

Bored

Bored and undone
What in the world have I become?
Holding on to this life
The only thing that's dear to me
I want to run
Take in the sun
And disappear into paradise
I want to feel the ocean waves splash over me
Get a hold and take over my soul
Splish splashing into the night
Making sweet love and it feels so right
What have I gotten myself into
This fetish, this thing that's not right
Feeling like I just might
Run
And never turn back
I don't want to see the tear
Drop from your eye
When I'm gone
You'll miss me
Take me for granted
You'll miss me
Don't appreciate my presence
You'll miss me
And I won't look back
To see the lonely tear
Fall from your eye
Hit the ground
While I touch the sky.

To Each's Own

It's really none of my business. If you want to do this or if you want to do that, go on ahead. If you ask for my advice, I might give it. If I see you about to fall, I might warn you, but if you choose to go on ahead, I'm not going to break my neck trying to stop you. That's God's job and I'm not him, so I mind my own business. I keep to myself because quite frankly, not everyone wants my advice and I completely understand that. But don't be mad at me for not being mad at you because you don't want my advice or anything else I have to offer for that matter. Sometimes, people just want to have power over you. They say they don't like you, so you try to change. Who are they to say what's likable and what's not and who cares what they like? I'm not catering to the jackass. I just won't do it.

Moving on. I like that phrase. It's deeper than forgiveness. It's deeper than letting go. Not only am I going to forgive you, but I'm going to get over you and get on with my life. I'm not going to let what you did bother me and I'm not going to let it stop me from living an abundant life. It's called healing and he's called Jesus, if you didn't know. Jesus will work miracles in your life if you let him. Some say he's just a fairy tale like the tooth fairy or Santa clause. But, I've experienced him in the spirit and that's enough to make me believe in his power and his grace. There's no one like him and you've just got to experience it to believe it. Peace out.

Love,

KM