When the Love is gone

When the love is gone and you're just co-existing
In the same house and no ignition
Nothing's on
There's no spark
He asks if you want to stay parked or move
You just give him this blank stare
Because inside you haven't been happy in a long time
And the void that will be created on top of being unhappy is too much to bare
So
You just give a blank stare
Refusing to acklowlege
Refusing to deal with the situation
Hoping it will fix itself
He'll make the decision
Your hands will be clean
Eyes fixed in a Blank stare
He's still there
You're still lonely
He's still waiting
For an answer
You tell him to leave
Over and over in your head
You scream Leave, but,
He's still there
All you can give is a blank stare
Start the ignition
Move
You stay parked
Hoping for a spark
One more day turns into weeks turns into years
In your grave never really having lived life
Never having allowed yourself to experience the true love you deserve
Constantly going through strife
Turning over left and right
It ends right now
Tonight
Coming up out of fright
Blank stare
We'll talk about it tomorrow
You want to stall
You have things to do
No time for this interruption
Blank stare
He's still waiting for an answer
Frustrated
He gets up to leave
You find yourself busy doing something else
You try to empty your mind of thoughts
Deal with it tomorrow you tell yourself
Tomorrow is a new day full of new possiblities
Staring blank into an epiphony
What if tomorrow never comes?
Blank stare into the rising sun.

Uncertainty

I've been feeling a little blue lately
Wondering what's the point
I stay positive
Keep it moving
Only to be slighted
Not even the simplest look
Tossed aside
Moving on to the next
What did I do that was so wrong?
How did I end up here?
No one wants to answer my questions
I'm deemed a trouble maker
Someone who won't go along with the status quo
You know you're wrong
I'm not allowed to say
No I won't play
You're stupid game
It's all just a test
My character at it's best
I can keep to myself
I don't have to tell all
This is not a book
I can't stand to look
Into the eyes of evil
I may get drawn in
The past has its arms around my neck
Threatening to choke the life out of me
If I don't give in
To what exactly
Failure?
Never that
I was made to win.

Emotional

Like a roller coaster
Up and down
Spinning
Tossing, turning
My stomach's in a knot
Is this a woman's plot?
The end to my story
Ends in drama
I don't want to wait to find out
If it's too difficult to take this plight
I'll opt out now
Untie my feelings
Up in a knot
This doesn't make sense
Endless drama dance
I feel led to repent
An endless doom
My life
May end too soon
If I keep going on like this
I'm not afraid to pay the consequence
For me to know and you to find out
This endless drama is soon to be a drought.

Anticipation

Waiting for something or nothing
Sitting around thinking about
What could have been
Should have been
Without you
I am nothing
A perfect 10
Washed a shore
It is no more
A total bore
Lifeless
Without breath
The air I breath is stifled
A vacuum
Filled with a suction
Venomous
Waiting to take my life
The anticipation is killing me
I can't take it any more
The pills, the knife
Which one will lead me quickest to the shore
The lonely place where I will exist no more
God is here
He is in this place
Open you heart
He's waiting to adore
The lovely vision that is you
Enjoy life
Someone loves you
Thinks you are the world
That someone is you
What are you going to do
Don't leave yourself waiting
Open your heart
You knew from the start
Now it's said
It's done
No more fast and heavy
On the run
Slow your pace
Walk hand and hand
Your man
Your woman
That someone is your God
Worship him
Worship her
Adore
All that the world has in store
To give up too soon
You'll miss the perfect moon
Full and in tune
With your name inscripted across it's heart
So perfect
So wondrous
You knew everything from the start.