Staying Motivated

Finding your purpose gives life so much more meaning. It makes all of the little things seem like what they really are, "little". No more drama, no more name calling, no more getting upset, no more arguing because I think the moon is yellow and you see it orange. It doesn't really matter. We can all still enjoy the beautiful view no matter what color each of us sees it.

Life can be so fulfilling if we're willing to change our perspective. If we're willing to see our cup as half full rather than half empty, we can always get more. We can enjoy the abundance that God has promised to each and every one of us. No matter what our circumstances, no matter what our past, things can always get better. We just have to keep striving towards our goals and never stopping until we get what we set out to get; always remembering to stay flexible and in tune with God's will for our life. If something is not happening the way it should, perhaps it's not God's will for your life or perhaps you need to turn in a new direction. No matter what the solution, the answer can only be found in him. He is the light and the way. No matter which God you choose to worship, having a spiritual base is always key to a healthy and happy life. Until next time, Peace and Blessings.

Love,

KM

Work with what God gave you

Why do people try so hard to be what they're not? It's an absolute waste of time. It's an absolute waste of time going after something you'll never get, when you should just just be thankful for what God has already given you. You want what they got and they want what you got. No one is ever satisfied. No one is ever happy. Only the strong with survive. It's survival of the fittest in a world where only a few actually get it. Be happy with what you got and then strive to seek the life that you and only you know that God has for you. At the same time, know your limits and know your boundaries. We should all have them because we don't want to do something stupid and end up murdered. When we ask God to remove the limits and boundaries, we're asking him to strengthen us so that we can handle the responsibility that comes with having more - having more money and more blessings bestowed upon us. More money, more problems is what they say and it's the truth. If God knows you can't handle the problems, let alone the money, he may not be inclined to give it. Work on handling what you got and God will give you more. Be blessed.

Love,

KM

Making progress

I'm making progress. I used to feel like such a complete failure, which I am in certain areas, I have to admit. I tried, it didn't work out, so I failed. It is better to have tried and failed than to never have tried at all. Right. So, I keep it moving. I'm making progress, though. I'm not where I used to be and I'm better off right now than I was two years ago, two months ago and two days ago. I'm making progress and that's alright with me;

Relationships

Relationships are hard. I'll be the first to admit. I am now engaged and it's a struggle trying to stay on the same page. We love each other and we have a son, so we make it work. I do believe that we are compatible, but like any other couple, we do have things to work on.

Men and women are different. People are different. Based on our experiences, we may view the world differently. It's wonderful to come in contact with someone who has the same view as you, but more times than not, it's all about compromise and trying to see eye to eye. Sometimes, you just have to agree to disagree. Is it all really worth it? Choose your battles. We only have this one life to live. The reality is, we're all going to have our date with death at one time or another, so we might as well live our life to the fullest. Arguing and nitpicking with our mates over pettiness is not a way to live one's life to the fullest. I'm making a commitment to God and I'm not turning back. Life is just too short to be angry, mad upset and pissed off all the time. We all have to learn to get along and respect one another as people if nothing else.

I'm moving on and I'm not holding on to the past. It's easier said than done, I know that. How do you let go of something that hurt you so deeply. How do you just pick up and move on like it never happened? I believe that like everything in life, getting over the past is a process and it doesn't happen over night. The good thing is that God will cover you as you're going through and when you come out bright as new the world will seem like a whole new place and your perspective will be livelier than ever.

We can't give up before we get to the good part. We have to keep going and we have to keep pressing on. God is the end all be all. He will be your strength, your pillar, your stronghold, whatever you need him to be and he will do it lovingly and with care. I'm so glad to have found the Lord within or I don't know how I would make it. He gives me guidance and the strength I need to face the challenges of each day and the challenges of my life. The challenges are getting to be less and less and the rewards are starting to come. I'm learning to see my cup as half full rather than half empty. Until next time, be blessed.

Love,

KM

Toxic People

You have to let it go. You can't keep letting it bother you and get into your life and under your skin. Toxic people can ruin your life if you let them. You ever had someone who just kept pushing your buttons and literally ticking you off and you just couldn't seem to get rid of them? Smile, don't let it bother you any more and they'll go away. Toxic people get off on your misery. They get off on making you mad and upset. It makes them feel as if they have power over you. I'm stripping toxic people of their power over me. I'm putting a cap on my buttons and shutting the door to my heart. You now have to knock to get in and if I don't open the door, then the message is clear. Keep it moving.

Life

Life is something that I contemplate every day. I wonder why I'm here, why I stay. It get's rough sometimes. It's interesting to me how we can sometimes complain and feel like life is just too much and we literally want it to hurry up and end, but if given the opportunity to end our life, we do everything we can to hold on to it. There must be something good. That's what each of our challenge is, to find the good. We have to get to the good part before we throw in the towel.

Suicide is something that I've contemplated on many occasions. I'm not going to lie and I will be transparent. I wanted to die. I wanted to end my life and I couldn't go on. Each and every time I would get to that point, Jesus would come in like a storm and wipe the feeling away. And I'd be okay for a little while and then the feeling would return. I'd get overwhelmed by what I didn't have and what I had not yet achieved and the outside pressure to not feel like a failure would make life seem like it wasn't worth living. I was so dissapointed in myself.

I had my son and I just knew that I would never have a bout with suicidal feelings again. I was wrong. They crept in. I cried and I cried because I just couldn't leave him. No one and I mean no one does it like mama. I even tried to justify that perhaps he would grow up independently and he wouldn't need me. I don't want him to be a needy person. I tried to make him my reason for living. I couldn't do it. I had to find it within. I had to heal and I had to finally face the fact of what was causing me to feel suicidal. I faced it. I processed it in my mind and I bound it in the name of Jesus. It can no longer rule and reign in my life. Prayer works and God can perform miracles. I'm a living witness to the fact.

God is good and life is good. Don't give up. Keep going. Even when haters and adversaries try to come in and make you miss out on your blessings, it's just not worth it to let any one else be happy on the account of your misery. They have problems, not you. Peace be with you and be blessed.

Love,

KM

Motherhood

I'm a new mommy and I have to say, I'm loving it. My son fulfills me in so many ways. I never imagined that one person would evoke so much love from within my soul. When I look at him deeply into his eyes and he smiles back at me, I feel like the world is at my finger tips. Being a new mom has its challenges. Changing diapers and being up at 2 o'clock in the morning to feed, soothe and rock back to sleep can be draining. The crying and fussing at times is off the chain. I've learned to keep him happy and to keep the noise level at a minimum;) For some reason, as a woman, you just do it and you go to work and you go on with your regular life just as fabulously as ever because you're a woman and you're wired to do it.

I love being a woman and I love all that it entails. I love having a son and showing him how he should be treated. My little one is only 8 going on 9 months and I feel as if I have so much to look forward to. It's wonderful to see him bond with his father. That's one thing I feel like I missed when I was growing up. I never had a strong bond with my father and I want that very much for my son. His father is doing an excellent job with him so far. We both love our son very much. I can't wait for life to happen with him in it. I look forward to being a family and doing all the things that families do together, lovingly and kindly with minimal drama. We go to church and try to keep the lines of communication open at all times. That's the only way we can grow together. Life is not without it's challenges, but if God is at the forefront then nothing can bring you down, it can only serve as a tool for growth.

Motherhood is something that I feel the Lord has been kind enough to let me experience in this lifetime and I don't take it lightly and I don't take it for granted. My son is my pride and joy. I want to be a good mother to him and I do everthing I can to be just that. Until next time, be blessed.

Love,

KM