11/26/10

There are so many scams out there, sometimes you have to wonder what to believe and not believe.  Too many wolves are being dressed in sheep's clothing.  Jesus has promised to see me through.  He didn't promised what I would go through would be pretty, nice or even cute.  That's alright though.  I know I've been equipped with the tools to see me through whatever trials life has is store.  You take the good with the bad and then you move on.  People keep asking me, aren't you upset about this, doesn't this make you mad, why aren't you running around pissed off basically when so much shit is wrong with your life.  In other words how can I be so much at peace, pleasant and with a smile on my face -no visible anger in sight.  I am upset, don't get me wrong.  I am at the limit.  Here, in this place I can control it.  It's when I'm out of place that my upsetness gets the best of me.  Not going to happen, since so many inquiring minds want to know.  It's called self restraint.  It's called being an adult and moving on.  It's called having a positive attitude.  I know so many people expect black women to be "different".  I'll leave it at that.  I'm still grounded in my roots. I just know that tomorrow will be a better day.  You do what you gotta do to get through.  Trouble don't last always, as the grown folks would say.  One day death will have it's say.  Might as well enjoy what you can and make the best out of life.  Smile.  It doesn't hurt and it produces a chemical relaxant in the brain.  Let your endorphins flow and leave all the drama for tomorra.

Peace and love,

Kisha Deniece

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful, to remember that we are blessed, despite the sometimes gloomy circumstances that surround us.  Far too often, we forget to give thanks and we just dive into that turkey, not taking the time to remember what Thanksgiving is all about.  Family.  Friends.  It's important that we love each other and let each other know just how much we mean to each other, not just during the holidays but, 365 days a year, 7 days a week.  With the rash of recent suicides publicly in the news, it makes me think that something just isn't right.  We are responsible for each other.  We are responsible to let each other know that we love and appreciate one another.  If you are a friend, a parent, a family member or a person with breath and you're not doing that for someone else, I implore you to check yourself and ask yourself, what's really important in life.  Some people will be spending the holiday season alone.  Give and remember to be thankful for something in your life.  All of us can find a little something, if not a big something to be thankful for.  Be blessed.

Love,

Kisha Deniece

11/22/10

Sometimes, I feel like giving up.  Sometimes, I feel like throwing in the towel.  There's one thing that keeps me going and that's the ever encouraging voice that I hear in my head.  The one I've learned to not only call on when things get rough, but to rely on through the good times as well as the bad.  I'm sitting here listening to that voice right now tell me that everything is going to be okay and that I'm going to be pleasantly surprised with what the future holds.  I hold that voice so near and dear to my heart and I pray.  I anticipate that day,  that day when I'm pleasantly surprised.  I hope it comes soon, quick, fast and in a hurry.   I'm tired of waiting.  It's not like I've been saved all of my life.  I certainly have not.  Some things take some time to manifest.  I'm still trying to get my life together, to clean up after the storm so to speak.  Slowly, but surely, I am getting there.  Never give up.  Leave it out of the equation.  Giving up is not even an option.  More like embracing the truth or giving in to what you know is right, holy and acceptable before the one you give your praise - that's what it is and it is wonderful.  To all the light that has shone, to all the stars that keep on shining, I say thank you for paving the way.  Happy Thanksgiving and have a wonderful life.  Forever and ever always.

Love,

Kisha Deniece

11/15/10

Sometimes, all it takes is a look back to see how far you've come for a little encouragement.  I think sometimes we get so wrapped up in the fact that we're not where we want to be that we forget to relish in the progress we've made thus far from where we used to be.  Life is a journey.  We spend 90% of our time  actually getting "there" and only 10% actually enjoying "there" before we're off to find another "there".  It's a vicious cycle we must all recognize in order to find some peace and quiet in our soul.  It's our inner man that can really take hold.  We're getting mad at this one and that one, this thing and that thing when we're really just battling our self.  Our mindset, our thoughts are the things that we must really get in check before we can lead a productive and fruitful life.  If there is one thing we can learn from celebrities, who have shown themselves less than perfect, is that money and fame truly can't buy you happiness.  If you don't do the work on self then money and things are just playing as a cover up.  You can spend it and spend it and still end up miserable inside.  A peaceful soul is priceless.  It's more valuable than jewelry and gold and all of the worldly possessions any man can have.  Besides, what good are worldly possessions without the peace of mind to really enjoy and appreciate what you have.  It's kind of like, what good is it to have a bunch of stuff if you have no one to share it with, which is why we have to be mindful of how we treat one another, especially our loved ones and friends who we value more than anything.  Until next time, peace out and remember to love and be love.

Sincerely,

Kisha Deniece

11/10/10

I'm not supposed to say this.  I'm not supposed to say anything.  I'm supposed to keep everything to myself all bottled up inside, like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode.  Not going to happen.  We all need an outlet.  Writing and prayer happen to be mine.  I think too many of us are walking around with unresolved issues, especially black women.  I don't care who you are, white, black, blackanese, asian, hispanic or whatever, rich or poor, we all have experienced something at one point or another that has left a major scar on our spirit man.  It's not the end of the world.  We can heal.  Even from rape and incest, there is a way to be set free.  So, don't give up.  Keep searching for that peace, for that inner sanctuary, that place where you can go in your mind where you're free and whole.  We have to stop looking for fulfillment in material things.  They are what they and that's just things.  They are nice to have, but they don't fulfill our inner needs.  That can only be done through inner reflection, prayer and mediation.  Things should be the manifestation of us made whole, however too many times, we're trying to front like we're whole, using things to cover up the scars or our wounds.  Time to do the work ladies and gents, especially to my brothers and sisters.  The world needs us to be strong.  We can't go down.  We've been through too much and the only way is up!  Be blessed.

Love,

Kisha Deniece

11/8/10

I like to try new things.  Oh well, I'm curious. They say curiosity killed the cat.  Should I care?  We're all going to die anyway right?  If I die from curiosity, I don't think it's going to hurt.  I just want to close my eyes one day, go to sleep and never wake up, let my soul transcend peacefully to the other side, completely satisfied with the life I've lived.  I do believe it's possible, which is why I get up everyday to pray.  To pray that I'm making the right decisions and being led in the right direction.  I had to get my mind right.  For a long time, I was in a bad place, doing things I had no business doing.  Now I'm here.  I know right, so I do right and that's all I can say.  I saw the movie produced by Tyler Perry, For Colored Girls and yes, I've considered suicide at the end of my rainbow, on numerous occasions as a matter of fact.  I thought when I had my son that would all be over with and I would never experience those feelings again because he would give me a reason to live.  He has given me so much more than that, but yes, the feelings came back and I considered suicide once again, overburdened and overpowered by this thing we call life.  I didn't want to go on.  I found a place.  A place in my mind that keeps me safe and here is where I stay in his holy presence.  When I keep my mind stayed on him, he keeps me in perfect peace.  Not to say that I don't have my moments but by his stripes I am healed and he guides me right on through, shining the marvelous light.  For all of the women who have considered suicide at the end of the rainbow, stop looking for that fulfillment in someone else and find it within yourself.  It's there.  We just have to look and be willing to go through the process.  It won't be easy.  You may loose one friend and gain a dozen.  It's all worth it in the end.  Choose life.  We've been given this wonderful chance to live it.  Don't let any one steal your joy and tell you you're not worth it.  Jealousy is an ugly enemy.  Learn to recognize it and be discerning.  Everyone who calls themselves a friend is not one.  We used to be able to count on the phrase, if it clucks like a duck and walks like a duck, must be a duck, but now a days there are some strong actresses and actors out there in rare form  Be careful and be the light.  Shine and be seen.  Find your purpose and fly little bird fly!