Thursday, March 31, 2011

I have to take the time to ask myself several questions.  I have to take the time to explore all of my doubts and not just ignore them, in hopes that they go away.  I'm in a predicament.  Some say I'm lucky, however, this certainly doesn't feel like luck.  It feels like muck, like I've been demoted to be promoted.  I see the work that God has been doing in me and he's given me a vision.  Not sure if I like the path.  It's taking too long and I'm running out of patience.  However, I've explored all of my doubts.  It's time for me to move on, whether I like what God is whispering to me or not.  I've tried to ignore his voice.  I've tried to do it my way.  It didn't work.  So now here I am ready and willing, feeling like I have no other viable or attractive choice at this point, totally and completely satisfied that I've explored every last one on my wild oats.  God is looking at me grinning and saying to me, I told you I had a plan for your life.  So calm, so collected, like he's been sitting around bored waiting for me to get it together, so we can go ahead and do this thing.  Well, I'm here now.  That's all I can say.  I'm here now and I'm ready to move forward.  In spirit and in truth, I embrace all that I've become and all that I aspire to be.  I am ready for the journey.  I'm headed down the right path and there is no turning back.  I am grounded in my purpose and I know the things of God are true in my heart and in my soul.  I hold these things deeply.  Forever and ever, amen.