December 31, 2010

Dear Reader:

Today is last day of 2010.  Tomorrow will be 2011.  As I look back and reflect, there's a lot of stuff I have a sister girl attitude about.  Tired of this, tired of that - about to throw away this and throw away that.  I paused in my steps recently and realized I needed to be humble.  It's important to be humble.  I'm going into 2011 realistically and with no regrets.  I don't want  any more sugar coating.  I don't want any more lies because people think I can't handle the truth or they're not man or woman enough to deal with the consequences of telling it to me.  I can read right through the lies and though I may not voice my knowledge upfront, I'm taking note and I'm making moves.  Please do not mistake my silence for dumbness.  I know what's really good.  I'm just thinking of the right strategic way to find myself up and out into a better situation.  I have to handle things better in 2011.  I find my mouth getting more and more foul recently.  I just want to curse anyone and everything.  It's sad.  I have a two year old.  I pray Jesus cleanse me.  I think really that's exactly what he has been doing.  All of the things that have been bottled up inside are finally coming out and I'm stepping into my season of renewed energy and strength.  I have been praying and meditating fervently and keeping a journal for my emotional thoughts.  It's time to let go and time to release.  Whatever has been bothering me and festering is going to go away.  I'm not scared anymore to fight back.  No one's going to hit me and no one is threatening to take my dignity away.  That person can't hurt me anymore and he can't touch me.  I am a full fledged woman and I dare a man to even look at me sideways.  You had better ask somebody.  I'm not a weak person.  I may be vulnerable in some ways and I may be soft.  All I know is that my past may have slowed me down but it did not stop me from being my best.  I have 48 more years to live on this earth approximately, unless a freak accident occurs.  Let's rock!  2011 is my year.  I'm taking no prisoners and I'm no longer bound.  Let's do this!

One Love,

Kisha Deniece